Life Lately: Where Have I Been?

Life lately has been rough. I’ve been MIA the past few weeks but for a very good reason. I have been focusing on my family and on more specifically on Tristan. What many of you don’t know is that we were blessed to take Tristan home with us on March 15 for 13 days. Those 13 days were the most joyous days my family has had this year. Waking up every day to my baby boy’s smile is something that I won’t ever forget. Unfortunately after those 13 short days we returned to our second home, the NICU.

Then on April 19th, my worst nightmare happened. My sweet baby boy gained his angel wings. Just like any other day my family and I woke up and thought that it would be a normal day. Tatiana went to school, my husband to work, and I to the hospital to be with Tristan. Never in a million years did we think that would be the day that our lives changed forever. My heart hurts for not only myself but for my daughter, my husband, and especially my son.

What happened to us is not fair at all and words can’t even explain how we’re feeling and what we’re going through but deep down in my heart I know that God has a plan for our family and my baby boy is in a better place. He blessed our family and this Earth with his presence for 6 short months that went by way too fast. Tristan was truly a fighter and every day for 6 months he amazed me with how hard he fought for his life. It has definitely been a wild ride since the day that Tristan was conceived but he truly made a huge impact in everyone’s lives. I’ll never forget his beautiful eyes, our favorite song, how much he loved to watch his sister and laugh with his dad. I’ll never forget our last day together. Right now I don’t know what God’s plan is but we ask that you continue to pray for our family and celebrate Tristan’s life with us. He will never be forgotten and his life will not go unnoticed.

In honor of Tristan, I started a non-profit organization for NICU moms called Mamas of The NICU. I’ll be sharing more of what that is all about soon. Be sure to follow us on Facebook, Instagram, and join our community if you yourself are a NICU mom. I will be focusing on Mamas of The NICU in addition to my blog. I’ll be launching a rebrand of my blog in a few short weeks. In the meantime I will be getting back to blogging on and bringing fresh new content. Tristan was a fighter and would want me to be strong and continue to fight every single day so that is what I will do. I will make my angel baby proud.

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    Rose Torres
    06.13.17 at 11:25 pm

    My heart goes out to you and your family. You’re so courageous. God bless you always!

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    07.09.17 at 9:43 pm

    You are incredibly strong and your family is very blessed ! Even though it may not seem like it in the moment things will get better and that’s a promise from me ! This is just God testing your faith ! You have been really strong and I pray that you continue to stay strong ! You can cry and you can laugh whatever you choose to do just make sure you keep your head up and never let anybody see you with your head down ! You have truly touched my heart and I hope only for the best going forward ❤️

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      Bianca Dottin
      07.11.17 at 12:04 am

      Thank you Kenya. I really struggle with it every day but I have faith that it will only get better. I appreciate your prayers more than you could even imagine.

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    Karen Akpan
    07.10.17 at 9:18 am

    I am so sorry about your loss. My heart goes out to your family. My prayers as well.

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    Crystal @ The Holliday Collective
    05.31.18 at 4:35 pm

    Bianca, what an amazing and loving ride your family took and you handled it with so much grace. I’m just reading through your posts about Tristan and cannot imagine what your family endured. But you endured and even shared tidbits with the world to read. I truly applaud those who can talk about even the worst days of their lives. Thank you so much for sharing and I wish you and your family nothing but the best as you move forward.

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      Bianca Dottin
      05.31.18 at 6:33 pm

      Thank you so much Crystal. That means a lot. It hasn’t been an easy journey but I’m hopeful that I can help others by sharing our story.

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